In Memoriam (1-40)


The police gave me this booklet.


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enough / enormous / love them / fear
to turn / by those / the person who
a person who / for leaving you
advice / a little / disappear

a right / events / for someone / face
bereavement / minor / may be wise
to cope with other / exercise
is crucial / loved one causes / place

provide / can be / is normal / end
be able / want to contact / ache
suggests / of grief / your loss / to take
or more / a common / crash / a friend

collecting / how you / in and out
that someone / process / hug / a good
can help / subside / is still / you should
including / do / wound up / about


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of other things and / care about
but don't / massage / my muscles ache
abandoned / vary / don't / can make
consider / hard to / extra / out

or carer / know / are wrecked / a smell
be busy all the / others find
in time / my muscles / months / of mind
to give you vital help and / well

including / write / express their / well
got over / also / be / be shared
a death / subside / for you / be scared
and having / leader / personnel

the section / know what / peace of mind
or looking / dancing / want to talk
your loved one / causes / life / a walk
an early / centre / people find


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are held to / others close to / own
is on the / overwhelmed / nearby
the end / the greatest / DIY
are often scared / bereaved / a phone

the sound / a better / breathing in
be full of / introduction / stress
excessive sweating / mind / express
of someone close / relax / begin

of who to turn / before your / be
I feel so tense and / extra pain
digestive problems / even / train
be helpful / not a / helpful / me

and friends and / blame / to think about
you trust / by those you / personnel
react by / say / a friend / as well
and helps / at times of / life without


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you should consult / you have a / rest
you have a / useful / outlines / fall
you vital / given / just / or all
until you feel / are common / best

should fade / to be as / out the best
behave / it means / which give / I keep
each morning / could have / helpless / deep
express their feelings / ask for / rest

few weeks / and friends and / heart / a friend
of this / to certain / roles / should fade
to think / I feel so tired / aid
around the home / your friends or / end

abandoned / theirs / and sad / how much
a road / to show this book to / draw
the tears / is being / through the door
how much / the sadness / music / such


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is on / the future may be wrecked
abandoned / things and keep / is poor
or even / good days / know / can draw
the future may / are not / expect

been killed / or suffer extra pain
of who to turn / my muscles ache
are listed / give them / this can make
that you / imagine / reading / train

of this / nearby / one causes some
when grieving / carer / help you / best
decisions / scared that / also / rest
to feel alone / be hard / become


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if nothing / pages / restful / fear
as if / employer / leaving you
my muscles ache / and restless / through
the feelings / loved one / disappear

or suffer / held to / joys / are not
have never / just / outdoors / a smell
suggests / the sadness / personnel
can help to know / so tense and / hot

the best / react / one causes some
is all too easy / go outdoors
or all / are common / may be / cause
the first few weeks / should stop / become

be hard / with normal / make / until
had told / who died / consider / wise
concerns / through talking / exercise
to give / beliefs / and friends / is still

a busy / grieving / leaving you
to turn to / at the back of / pains
and getting help from / full / explains
in waves / be hard to cope with / who

the greatest / draw / enormous / fear
have suffered / this is / tidy / fears
the back of this / the time / the tears
be hard to / dreams / the back / severe

about a / this will give / to rest
of panic / levels may / be shared
who may be / poor / they love / be scared
which can be / jumbled / happen / best

I can't / rebuilding life without
with other / good / some people find
you have a right / for leaving / mind
the trauma / care for / birth / about

alone / is common / personnel
you vital / door / but don't / a good
is easy / feel alone / you should
be hard to cope with / can't / a smell

will give / your friends or / weeks / a walk
can trigger thoughts / forget to / just
I keep / be helpful / done / you trust
you vital help / support / can talk

may tense / in shock / you have a right
through talking / person who / the end
or suffer / right to / love / a friend
how much / in some / upsetting / might


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creative way / when grieving / ways
or tremors / next few / hug / you should
to stop / are feeling / not a good
the sudden death of / holidays

on how you / nothing / sister / trust
rebuilding / scared to / plans / a friend
or have / a bus / is on the end
to be as / ease the tension / just

is on / or jogging / people find
persist / when someone / during / true
are newly / told the person who
about a / shock can be / of mind


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I keep / be wrecked / the news / is still
unnoticed / centre / first few / died
horrific / first few weeks / subside
or taking / not alone / until

their loved one / getting help from / make
injustice / loved one / plans are / best
when grieving / teacher / friends / to rest
the person who / my muscles ache

is all to easy / feel / be wrecked
be hard / you ever have to face
about a / others find / can place
may tense / and months of / well / affect

to write / exhaustion / done / as deep
collecting / wrong / are often scared
you care for / how to / oh / be shared
or cigarettes / you care for / keep

concerns / excessive / exercise
had told / will give them / being part
the sudden death of / feelings / heart
can talk / or teacher / someone dies

through talking / helpless / stranger / right
one looked like / suffer extra pain
is very / full / bereavement / train
know how to help / in shock / it might


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intense / it helps / the shock / have heart
to write / or hobbies / leaving you
or have / develop / person who
to walk / of worship / being part

to cope / it useful / why / is sad
of who to / bath can / this is / just
be hard to cope / express / you trust
can trigger / stresses / contact / bad

of someone / leaving / person who
the joys of life / can help / how much
whose loved ones / contact / want to / such
express your / fall / for leaving you

is still / before your / on your / phone
and dizzy / might / are wrecked / have heart
which offer / forward / being part
to talk / to help / or tremors / own

untimely death / to certain / cause
are feeling / station / big / to take
alone / to give you / this can make
about a / sudden / go outdoors


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to feel your / told the person who
recover / scared that / cope / the best
the wrong / does not / express your / rest
the news cannot be / fade with / you

a walk / you ever have to face
know how / is normal / help / provide
to write / as if / your loved one died
be scared to go / the time / can place

for people / trained / a busy / write
for you / to show / to go / the tears
forget the sound / persist you / fears
you may / the news cannot be / might

expect the person / give you / end
few weeks / with time and / cope with / pains
in many aspects / blame / explains
the early stages / certain / friend

and friends and others / keep / be wrecked
this book to / suffered / fearful / fall
if you / the trauma / weeks / or all
around the home / you should / affect


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is being / suffer / ask for / might
this section / women / DIY
my muscles ache / know how / nearby
and then exhaustion / symptoms / right

about to / train / than staying in
to cope with / suffer / wrecked / and sad
remember / waves / whose loved ones / bad
you may / react by / full / begin

untimely death of / don't / severe
can sometimes / how / persist / cannot
it might / you vital help and / hot
or much / but find it / section / fear

or cigarettes / it helps / express
to those who / hug / are held / nearby
the best / forget the sound of / why
advice in / life can / contact / stress

continue / months / the shock can be
will give / that someone / extra / fall
your doctor / want to talk to / small
had told / to stop / with grief / why me


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and choking / died / to show this / some
you ever / feel so / peace of mind
few weeks and months of / part of / find
a common thought / as deep / become

as time / the death / my muscles ache
and slowly / really / breathing in
alive / of other things / begin
to people / means / abandoned / take

to health and / brother / time for / fear
for you / to give you / much / it should
express their feelings / time / a good
can help to / box / I feel / severe

their voice / excessive / senseless / face
and wonder / those / can talk / for not
relaxing / at the / taking / hot
of who to / feel / and wonder / place

or hobbies / place of / feeling / all
can talk to / sometimes / problems / tears
to cope with / crash is / suffered / fears
to certain / give them / making / fall


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that alcohol / all seem unfair
the best / or if / or taking / still
have died / the best in us / until
at times of / parent / hard to bear

be restful / feel your / if your / stage
this book / can trigger / could have / scared
for them / of panic / ways to / shared
them feel / of panic / hobbies / page

of other things / are listed / aid
and unexpected / loved one / s/he
as deep / each morning / why / to be
has died how much they / if your / fade

I feel so tense and / want to talk
I can't believe / with time / how much
or suffer / rest / can talk to / such
you vital help and / during / walk

a better / grief cannot be / walk
to face / be restful / come in / ache
recover / help to know that / make
and having / own / the joys of / talk


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the back of this / be able / peace
of grief / with work / remember good
through talking / right to / love / you should
few weeks / by those / may not / police

they menstruate at / if / you trust
an early / if / my plans / before
a bus / they love them / those / the door
to contact / hard to cope with / just

occur / is sad that / deeply / peace
all seem unfair / how much / explains
at first / react by / stomach pains
who may be / taken / though / police

and slowly / such as / life without
are newly / trigger / early stage
subside / of mind / their loved one / page
have never / leaving / care about

the first / to contact / exercise
or if your loved / be full of / sad
to cope with / good / rebuilding / bad
from close / and slowly / may be wise


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can trigger thoughts / bereaved / the end
be helpful / help to show this / some
of panic / contact / but / become
the death / a hug can help / a friend

had told / may cause / on how / is still
the early / realising / heart
about to / focus / being part
and months of / future may / until

excessive / care / some people find
a hug / you may / your loved one died
the back of / peace / because / provide
to suffer feelings / crash is / mind

should fade / with time / and higher / good
be wrecked / the sadness / help to / well
decisions may / or if your / smell
asleep / you vital / trust / you should

consult your doctor / stresses / well
depending / told the person / sad
begin / support / rebuilding / bad
however / cause / to make / a smell


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to think about / a loved one / sad
to things / it might / as holidays
a child / few pages / simple ways
react by wanting / normal / bad

the end of / crises / DIY
few pages / pages / breathing in
a good / for leaving / fears / begin
but find it very / future / why

the death of someone / best / until
as being part / your loved one died
has suffered / have / I feel / provide
express their feelings / roles / is still

to know what / sadness / go outdoors
been killed / and helps / or teacher / s/he
by those you / things and keep / why me
decisions may / remember / cause

events and / on your body / fade
and wonder / brother / staying in
as time / explains / to health / begin
the sadness / groups / beliefs / should aid


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and slowly / suffer extra pain
has died how / who to / DIY
the death of / grief / know how to / why
for them / as being part / a train

one died / about to / minor / why
to feel as if / the sound of / pains
or brother / details / trained / explains
and help you / walking / DIY

forget to / face / an early stage
should fade with time and / problems may
to you / the early stages / say
the sound of / ways / is useful / page

the news / a death / without / to take
for them / as well / is even / aid
know how to / somewhere / talk to / fade
cannot / expression / panic / ache

you may not have / for them to be
the first few weeks / a bus / to bear
to stop it / later / seem unfair
have heart / at times / the joys / why me


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to eat / in waves / mistakes / a good
or suffer / others during / place
you may not / ever have to face
which go unnoticed / up / it should

decisions may / look forward / page
to think about / some people find
may not know how to / peace / of mind
you ever have / cannot be / stage

in some / of things / you trust / is still
massage / an early / peace / in some
have heart / has told / the phone / become
develop / may be / rest / until

decisions under stress / be shared
had told the person / fearful / place
is crucial / ever have to face
creative way / in time / be scared

had told the person / booklet / why
are held to / normal / stages / much
to focus / future / worry / such
to face / suggestions / DIY


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abandoned / can't / and keep / until
consult your doctor / on the end
unhappy / other / if / a friend
of anger / happen / blame / is still

the home / it helps / one causes some
before / digestion / out the best
I feel so tense and restless / rest
of someone close / to turn / become

to stop / you have / as headaches / door
asleep or / heart / the sudden / ways
has died how / go / as holidays
the roads / to stop it / choking / poor

at work / the first / expect / begin
is even / looking / s/he / I keep
you should / are caring / well as deep
I'm scared to / more than staying in


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are part of / future may be / just
depending / home / you care for / smell
and wonder / pressure / personnel
to show this book / about to / trust

and restless / do / a loved one / fade
as being / sometimes something small
consider / are bereaved / or all
forget / to be as active / aid

have done / that someone / thing / a good
to think of / who to / happy / still
as well as / end of / thought / until
is all to easy / crisis / should

your health / you love is killed / how much
imagine things / what happened / might
be hurried / trained / you have a right
rebuilding life without your / such

as painting / driving / holidays
relaxing / future may be wrecked
is better / have enough / expect
it means / decisions / simple ways


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for people / done / has also / page
may not know how to help / one died
your loved one died / in some / subside
untimely death / until you / stage

you ever have / the time / should fade
to make / not have / suggests / be scared
one causes / birth / cannot be shared
my muscles / partner / heart / should aid

one looked like / you'll / to feel alone
who may / the birth of / full / as though
one died / are part of / bear to show
been killed / the best in us / a phone

at hand / persist you should / their place
with other / leave / remember good
the sudden death of / face / you should
around / you ever have to face

the home / untimely / exercise
for not / to be / this section / may
can be / without your loved / delay
cannot be / slowly / may be wise

about / of anger / not a good
has died / a better / others find
you vital help and / peace of mind
an early / small / can cope /it should

police / before your loved one died
for them to be / unfair / police
but find it very / you'll get / peace
cannot be / say the wrong / provide


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you love / about the / teacher / show
abandoned / dancing / breathing in
is still / is still / their voice / begin
your feelings / questions / scared to go

a loved one causes / from / can make
has also / treating / others / fears
untimely / aspects / on / the tears
a bus / is followed / muscles ache

and dizzy / ever have to face
a train / or suffer extra pain
I'm scared / be shared / suggestions / train
your doctor / heart / you care for / place

and friends / the future may be wrecked
severe / can cope / the early / fear
the cinema or / disappear
your health and / news cannot / expect

one died / of someone / disappear
is very / alcohol / it might
for not / suggestions / certain / write
is easy / tears / occur / severe


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is being / something / think of / friend
my plans are wrecked / can talk / outdoors
events and / this is / ever / cause
collecting / others close / the end

and having / ever have to face
or if your loved one / lives / are not
unfair / of ways / you vital / hot
explains / religious / crash is / place

to walk / is being held / can be
and friends and others close / should aid
of other / outlines symptons / fade
and realising / joys of / s/he

disloyal / during / go outdoors
the end / do not / without / to face
one causes some / it means / their place
their feelings / others close to / cause

you feel and having / aid / to walk
begin / they love them / times before
how much they love them / through the door
or looking / us / expression / talk

be scared to / cause / it may all / best
is sad that / fade with / bath / explains
to you / it useful / stomach pains
has died how / who has died how / rest


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occur / you vital help and / be
I feel / been killed / in time / outdoors
at work / to eat / be hard to / cause
you love is killed / few weeks and / me

to face / rebuilding / section / us
you have a / at the back of / fear
is all too easy / disappear
occur / can place / employer / bus

to those / you feel / and wonder / stage
should stop / to feel your loss / affect
a phone or / may all seem / expect
can help to / hard / the death of / page

it very useful / have heart / you may
continue / very / consult / to go
persist / or suffer / looking / oh
asleep or / think of / oh / delay


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and months of / told the person who
your loved one / person who has died
to show / you have a / you'll / subside
of life / for help / to stop it / do

however / being / being part
the birth / I'm scared to / running / all
you may not have / of anger / small
has suffered / wrecked / the future / heart

with normal / music / months of / smell
to show / can help / should fade with / trust
this section / muscles ache / on just
or mounting photographs / as well


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and for / creative / breathing in
react by / loved one causes some
to make mistakes / for help / become
the joys / subside / at times / begin

for someone / if you / should / in some
your health and / very angry / s/he
you feel and having / full / why me
wound up / or if / as if / become

or teacher / few / develop / mind
you may not have / advice in / good
is very / sometimes something / should
can help to / bad days / others find

you care for / flashbacks / may be wrecked
forget the sound of / well as deep
advice / so tense and / could have / keep
to know / has suffered / great / affect


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relaxing / thought / begin with / page
but find it very / persist / the door
the circumstances / say / is poor
the wrong / abandoned / early stage

be wrecked / to walk / and for / can place
is followed / at the / well as deep
as holidays / important / keep
which give / and having / have to face

the joys of life / will give them / mind
for you / your loved one / comment / peace
persist you should consult / police
a stranger / more than / others find

be anxious / suffer extra pain
a loved one causes / who has / tears
it might / or if / to show this / fears
relax / should fade / is crucial / train


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to give / who died / an early stage
of life / and unexpected / train
the best / or suffer extra pain
or jogging / cause / when grieving / page

is followed / sometimes something small
has also / lost / about / is sad
a little / much they love them / bad
towards the person / behave / or all

when someone dies on / fears / a good
be scared / at work / and help / or more
it very useful / train / is poor
explains / is better / fear / you should

of worship / overwhelmed / should aid
to have / it should / to think about
to health / and wonder / life without
is all to easy / waking / fade

a loved one causes / held / or all
as holidays / a number / take
events / one causes / muscles ache
to rest / you care for / something small


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you ever have / or tremors / part
the sudden death / which can / as deep
about the crash / severe / I keep
of things / before you loved / have heart

can place intense / a train / to face
has happened / sad / the early / way
with time / are held to blame / it may
or even / make it / letters / place

or if your / waves / are often / days
and friends and others close / express
are wrecked / become / is followed / stress
can place / should stop / the feelings / ways

I'm scared / you ever have to face
intense / a loved one causes some
to rest / and dreams / a good / become
not have enough / is poor / their place


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continue / happen / on how / one died
and realising / muscles ache
can place / and months of / this can make
in many aspects / for help / provide

to be as active / want to / bear
in many aspects / choking / cause
to those who / challenge / go outdoors
you should consult your / new / unfair

as time / to ask / or carer / us
or much / the first few weeks / the phone
from others / may tense / are not alone
a little / talk to / waking / bus

to know what happened / the phone / outdoors
are common / friends or / times before
the first few / who to turn to / draw
the wrong / you ever have to / cause

of mind / can make it / times / police
one looked / rebuilding life without
may tense / your health / to think / about
can place / I feel so tense and / peace

should aid / you love / as holidays
the news / react by / child / you should
procedures / as time / remember good
this book / or brother / simple ways

or suffer extra / their lives / the best
and helps prevent / mistakes / and sad
as well as / music / in and / bad
few weeks and months / asleep / to rest

to those who / suffer extra pain
injustice / something / followed / sad
react / my muscles / offer / bad
you feel and having / booklet / train


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my plans are wrecked / have done / nearby
is still alive / is all / and sad
as though the crash / a number / bad
that you / procedures / DIY

subside and / often leaves / police
and others / people who / is sad
be scared to / if your / levels / bad
rebuilding life / persist you / peace

employer / other / those you / walk
can do / I keep / been killed / a bus
provide an / place intense and / us
had told the person / heart / to talk

be hurried / swimming / from close / as well
your loved one died / to talk to / just
are common / also lost / you trust
for someone / bear / each morning / smell


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and getting help from / trained / nearby
be busy / fade with time / until
persist you / have to face / is still
you ever / some / be happy / why

the first few weeks and / home / outdoors
the sadness / find you / stomach / heart
the joys of life / to happen / part
the future / rest / by details / cause

with normal / when you / simple ways
got over / know what happened / pains
can talk to / showing friends / explains
is followed / such as holidays

or tremors / often / crisis / bad
one causes some / to bear / nearby
and higher / love them / DIY
to talk to / held to blame / is sad


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how much they love them / good / as deep
by wanting / told the person / own
to focus / playing music / phone
until you feel / of panic / keep

but find it / walk / are held / it may
be therapeutic / in some / a bus
can talk to / questions / best in us
forget the sound / and sad / delay

one causes / be imagined / tears
to happen / outlines / happened / well
and slowly / trigger / personnel
when someone / fear / the greatest / fears

and others / fear / the early / hot
disloyal / restless / suggests / a bus
you trust and / may / with others / us
if only / common / that you / are not


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of other things and / hug / of who
of other things and / useful / sad
and restless / circumstances / bad
for leaving you / can cope / to you

horrific / breathing / disappear
the feelings / more than staying in
to contact / jogging / not have / begin
remember / jogging / have done / severe

of other things / to have / until
that someone / scared to go / expect
of crisis / own / it may / be wrecked
the future may / to help / is still

the joys of life / a busy / end
I'm scared to go / can help / nearby
by wanting / time for / problems / why
that staying in / be hard / a friend


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through talking / doctor / and friends / the phone
is still alive / an early stage
I can't believe / their loved one / page
can place intense / are not alone

the sudden / loving / someone / ways
to worry / health and / grief cannot
and friends and others / happened / hot
consult your doctor / holidays

with time and / fears / of life can / find
procedures / sometimes / crucial / fall
you vital / sometimes something small
or photograph / at hand / of mind

but find it very / peace of mind
one looked like / deep / you should / a right
be scared to go / few weeks / it might
but don't forget to / people find

can trigger / someone / outlines / heart
horrific / something / well as deep
from others during / nothing / keep
subside and / other symptoms / part

digestive problems / not a good
whose loved ones / stomach pains / can make
digestive problems / are wrecked / to take
to health and / have / are held to / should


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injustice / first and / want to / such
but don't forget to think about
the end of / during / life without
for people / close to / died how much

excessive / time and / out the best
including / to eat / as holidays
about the person / simple ways
react by / crash / expect the / rest

or if your loved one / partner / make
subside and / sudden / who has / stress
are caring / sweating / bear / express
it may all / bear / exhaustion / ache

injustice / know that / out the best
the sudden death / until you / ways
to suffer / such as holidays
or looking / bus / a person / rest


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how much they / feel and / those / it might
be better / peace / the future / fears
imagine things / to blame / the tears
few weeks and months of / very / write

a stranger / help and / extra pain
when grieving / tears / when someone dies
unnoticed / small / it may be wise
but don't forget to / want / a train

collecting / vital help and / way
whose loved ones / you'll get / home / until
to show this / vital / events / is still
of mind / digestive problems may

to turn to / first and / peace of mind
the person / more than staying in
disloyal / levels / mistakes / begin
enough to / child / some people find

is being / time in / us / to talk
what happened / feel your / killed / a train
of someone / suffer extra pain
express your / rest / mistakes / to walk

the person who / a good / should fade
are often / don't / or carer / take
on how you / ways to / this can make
when someone dies / to give you / aid


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you ever have to / exercise
my muscles / stomach / shock can be
how much they love them / painting / s/he
have never / jogging / offer / dies

have never / common / peace of mind
it may all / turn / remember good
the cinema / been killed / you should
go shopping / without / some people find

of other things / explains / express
without your loved one / help to show
to know that / deeply / scared to go
they menstruate / is all too / stress


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untimely death of / few / until
enough to / more than staying in
the end of / others close / begin
the sudden / cause / excessive / still

subside and helps / or much / the door
can make it / morning / staying in
the end of / careful / all seem / begin
of crisis / sound of / times before

prevent / you ever have to face
a person / in / your health / you should
to show this / bad days / something good
to turn to / have a right / their place


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as going / suffer extra pain
without your loved / get angry / deep
about a loved one / nothing / keep
abandoned / people / hug can / train

a right to / passes / fade with / mind
subside and / hard to / deeply / scared
to think of / do / of things / be shared
and having / tense / make them feel / find

will give them / meaning / taken / door
or cigarettes / with other / shared
to focus / some / are often scared
is useful / ever / times before

you feel and / days and / poor / or more
enable / time for / have to face
when waking / make mistakes / can place
to know what happened / times before

the trauma / restless / scared to go
a loved one / theirs / and friends and / fear
the news cannot be / disappear
of crisis / weeks and months / to show

or suffer extra / suffer / make
consider / how / get angry / bus
if nothing / thing at / best in us
are busy / show / my muscles ache

how much they / having / early stage
your friends or / social / new / a good
are painful / rather / hand / you should
without your loved one / doctor / page

when grieving / simple ways to / bad
are caring / time of / bad / explains
you have a right to / stomach pains
events and names / important / sad